Im tired...solution? sleep.
but sleeping passes time until tomorrow
tomorrow I have to do things I dont want to.....solution? dont sleep, and pass time.
but not sleeping makes you more tired....solution? find a way to sleep and have it not pass time....
still working on that.
Insanity is like living in a fictional world, but no one else knows it. They don't understand. Things are they way they are because you expect them to be that way. Sometimes its not ideal, and sometimes it doesnt make sense...to everyone else. But no, it makes sense to you. Everything makes sense to you, no one else understands why.
Live in my world.
Time shouldnt pass when your having fun. Fun should last longer. Its the boring things that seem to take forever. Why should the undesirable things take longer? That doesnt make sense. Exciting things should be the things that last. Solution? Dont be bored. Make sense? To me yes.
1 problem: I find essential things boring, or to a lesser extent, troublesome. Homework? boring. Cooking? therapeutic....but time consuming. Going to work? boring. Leaving the apartment? troublesome. Solution? Become a hermit who does nothing but play video games and has pizza and rootbeer constantly delivered to his door.
Too bad thats kind of frowned upon in this society.
To do:
Find a job that I actually enjoy doing.
Find a way to make school enjoyable.
Find ways to spread my time out so I can cook.
in order to do these things, I must minimize time wasting.
But if I'm being productive, then time goes by too quickly....meaning eventually I'll have to sleep....and then wake up....and then do stuff I wont want to do.
New proposal, find a way to slow down time.
suggestions appreciated.
warning: outlandish and ridiculous conspiracy theories will be taken literally and not sarcastically.....cuz they always sound funner than reality.
and right now, reality is me being awake.....and being awake is boring....thus, time seems to drag on...
